Something you can take from a role model is the inspiration to know your passion and to have the drive to persue your passion.

But I must be careful not to focus on how far from that goal I am, which could be depressing. I sort of half know what my passions are or were, but I have so little energy which manifests in having so little time to do something with that. I used to love discovering new music and going on journeys through the songs I already had. Now even putting a cd in the player already feels like too much effort.